silently strong but deals with problems in an emotionally concealed manner

i still have one month to know and cure what is really going on. my health sucks… i need to be okay before May.  i think not knowing what is really happening to my body makes me sick as well.  i want them to explain what is happening to me. gee i hate people asking me what’s wrong cause i still dont know exactly what is going on. hay…. too many test for thyroid, heart, blood, etc…. huhuhuhuhuhu all i know is this is just stress so why bother too many lab tests? i need to unwind, wanna sleep all day long, wanna hug him all night long.  best thing to do right now is have some vacation then after that im ready to face those lab tests…