silently strong but deals with problems in an emotionally concealed manner

I have never been so wrong before. You made it impossible for me to find a new YOU. 

YOU spoiled me by your touch. I would only be fooling myself if I tried to believe that is still a room for us. Now who can love me the way you do.  No matter how I change my mind I know I am wasting time. I am still broke, but no matter how I keep hoping things will be back real soon I am just fooling myself. There ain’t no way I’m getting over you I don’t know what I’ve been trying to prove. I’m hopeless, helpless when it comes to you, chubbyto. The love you gave is so hard to find. But I know you want this way, am i just a waste of time? It kills me when I hear your name. i said I’ll be over you just a week of two but look at me I aint feel better. I know I know part of me says let it go and right now I’ll try anything just feel better.

i miss my old my life, hay.  i miss being alone, but i aint saying i dont like my sister around it is just i have responsibility whether i like it or not she’s my brat sis, gosh she’s sometimes pain in the ass.  hay but i love her maybe i aint use to have her around and being her ate again.  almost 4 or 5 years din kc kmi hindi tlga nagsama although nagkikta namn kmi.  and right now i have commitment na and i am so happy kc as in seryoso ko d2 pro hirap pla mag adjust i am crossingmy fingers kaya ko to.  hay i love my sis and otep so much n kaht hirap nko magadjust s kanila kinakaya ko kc i know they are the people who make me stronger and feel that i am blessed. to julca and otep, pls namn wag namn kyo pasaway. mmwah…

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