i decided to kill myself…
crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing what is real discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me distracting/reacting against my will I stand beside my own reflection it’s haunting how I can’t seem…
It could be so simply… who I am? What the *** im doing here. Am I doing the right thing? I can’t believe myself. I can’t open my eyes. No matter how I try to let it go, no matter how I laugh about it, I don’t know what to do… I wanna let go of the past. I think I’m crazy. Pls don’t look straight to my eyes. Am I a just a big joke? I can’t trust myself. What is the real thing? You think you know me? Think again. I wanna sleep again. I want it out of my system. I don’t believe myself. I pity myself but no wait no regrets!!! What’s right? What’s wrong? Sometimes I wanna stop breathing but I know I still have a lot to do. I am lost as always!!!! Am I stupid to let these things to happened? Lack of self control? i felt this way before so insecure…. I’m ok!!!
