Archive for May, 2006

LET again…

Monday, May 29th, 2006

smile and let the sun shine again.

dance and let the rain fall again.   

sing and let the wind blow again.

laugh and let your heart shout again.    

think and let your mind breathe again.

pray and let your soul see the light again.

sleep and let your dream come true tonight…

IM HOME…

Monday, May 29th, 2006
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

i decided to kill myself…

Thursday, May 11th, 2006

crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal fear is how I fall confusing what is real discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me distracting/reacting against my will I stand beside my own reflection it’s haunting how I can’t seem…

It could be so simply… who I am? What the *** im doing here. Am I doing the right thing? I can’t believe myself. I can’t open my eyes. No matter how I try to let it go, no matter how I laugh about it, I don’t know what to do… I wanna let go of the past. I think I’m crazy. Pls don’t look straight to my eyes. Am I a just a big joke? I can’t trust myself. What is the real thing? You think you know me? Think again. I wanna sleep again. I want it out of my system. I don’t believe myself. I pity myself but no wait no regrets!!! What’s right? What’s wrong? Sometimes I wanna stop breathing but I know I still have a lot to do. I am lost as always!!!! Am I stupid to let these things to happened? Lack of self control? i felt this way before so insecure…. I’m ok!!!