silently strong but deals with problems in an emotionally concealed manner

For many years, not so far, my silence concealed the pain.  So many sleepless night, fruitlessly waiting in vain, wandering where to find that one thing.  It is easier to believe that an angel will never open this empty room.  There are too many reasons not to feel enough, memories are consoling my soul somehow, but still can someone fill the copious space.  Such a lovely life to end, but how long can one hold to a hopeless rope.  I am ashamed to this kind of weakness; oh Lord I need your forgiveness. 

It could all be so simple
But you’d rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces me to scream your name
Then pretend that I can’t stay

It ain’t workin’
And when I try to walk away
crazyt things will make me stay
This is crzay

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can’t be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I’ll let go too
‘Cause no one’s hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you’d be there for me

The world and its own enemies like my life to its own crazy stuff.   The dreamers, all the losers, and to all the sleepers, may you find the eternity, and so for me Within Flame, let it be love around me.  The riddles for all the souls who are waiting, there are "sayings" the Messiah is coming. To my fears and tears so long coz there will be someONE for me. Waiting is a phase of life that is never changing.  My life is amazing and you are exciting. And only a chapter can end this longing, so I wish us all hoping for the next best thing.    

you are one of those things, who will keep me from falling

geisha