silently strong but deals with problems in an emotionally concealed manner

am dreaming about having a life…

Oh my I am living with my unhealthy life style!!! Gosh!!! People need SEX pla tlga!!! Heehheh… I just have a very informative discussion last Thursday with the doctors of our company!!! I have learned that once you tried doing it, it is good to continue doin so, just for the sake of exercise. Ngek.ngek.ngek. ala kong ma-say!!!

what an awesome way to express thyself… shout out… it seems to me that i cannot even comprehend how things been goin lately, how technology really works..hehehe how it helps people to get over with their sh!t…hehehe i just know it by one click away…am i too busy thinking about how cool life in 388 BC??heheheh so im in the middle history & future??? ngek… life right now is cool too but how do i live with it?? (bka pro n lng animation pti radiation naku cancer to!!! eheheh eh)… chempre easy lng blog lng ng blog..ngek ngek..tanda ko n ata eh…

VEERED DIRECTION

i saw my own lapses eating me slowly; I felt the roaring wind knocked me down. I struggled with vain hopes in my heart. My soul was out of reach; my companion was nostalgia. I began to build a wall to guard my weak heart, cause I cannot afford to have another emptiness.  Knowing no one can hurt me now, I have become more confident, yet also becoming insensible to life.  A life that I was once dreamed to have. I am not that inert, I don’t despise life, feelings, or enjoyment. I am happy with my life…I keep on saying that cause I know I am.  I just don’t trust my heart.  Now that I want to love someone, now that I’m ready, unfortunately the wall guarding my heart wont allow anyone. My experiences thickened my blood with cold. It ails my ability to be human. I’m looking over the things I have done for myself, now I don’t know if I’m in the right pathway of my life.       

I never wanted to be a CERTIFIED STRICT ATE… or ah ATE-pls-buy-me-dis person!!!

Well, now that I have a job, I though im ok with being independent, I can buy things I want but with time frame…hehehe I have to save money first…I was happy coz this s 1 way of helping my parents, I don’t have to ask money or any stuff that I wanted, but then I realized im the ATE of 2 sis and 2 bro, although my parents are not expecting anything from me…I dunno, its so weird that I want them to ask stuff /money from me, even thu i want my salary to be spend only for my vices, etc.. but right now im planning to buy some unnecessary stuffs for them… and Im saving money for X-mas dedicated only for them….weeeeeewwwww….i feel like im getting old before my time…never want to be a bread winner or stuff like that cause I am not…Responsibility will knock, even thu u your not ready yet, or don’t want to open the door. RESPONSIBILITY has a KEY/WAY of entering.  Now, im the one who’s asking them what they want… I guess im really getting older na….